Story about Go-Go or Striptease dancing in bars

Story about Go-Go or Striptease dancing in bars

I Can't Imagine Myself Dancing Again

DANCER I came to America two years ago as a student on international exchange program. For the first four months I lived and worked in Minnesota, then moved to New Jersey and worked there in a diner for about six months. Then one friend of mine told me about Go-Go dancing or Striptease dance in bars. I was shocked I thought I would never be able to do this. I was thinking about this option for a long time. After a while it seemed to me like the best choice. I will go to New York, will make a lot of money easily . I will have opportunities which I will never have if I stay in NJ working in a diner without any documents, without a car. So I decided to do so.

I left the friendly house where I lived, left my friends, everything. In Brooklyn (where I moved) my "agent" (Russian woman, who has a "dancing agency") put me in a room where I had to sleep on the floor for three days until I found a room for myself (I was lucky I found it very fast). My dancing career started. I was working six nights a week, the funniest thing is that every night we went back to NJ because all the bars were there. So I lived those two months just working and sleeping during the day time. (Thanks God these bars weren't topless. Girls in NJ dance in bikini, otherwise I would have never decided to do this.) Than I moved to a three-bedroom apartment with two Russian girls where I live till now.

I changed the "agencies" couple times and started working with the best one for me. I changed the bars and started to make good money. By that time I worked only 3-4 days a week and this was enough and I was able to save some money also. I sent some money to my family when they had some financial problems. It was great; a little bit of work, and I could do anything I wanted. But I knew this career was not for me. I was scared when I saw girls from our agency who have been dancing for 7-10 years. They had nothing. No family, no future. All they care about is only money to go out and get drunk, or something worse. I was asking myself how they were going to live in 10-15 years. You are not getting younger. And this kind of "job" makes you look older two times faster. I was thinking about myself what to do next. I had no papers, therefore I had no rights. The only option which came to my mind was to get married. I had candidates, but I couldn't imagine myself with any of them. To be short I'll just say that I found somebody to make it for money.

Then I went to a beauty school, nine months I was in school. During that time I was in school five days a week and working two days. It was hard. It was hard to get used to American classmates, to that sometimes just very dumb system, but I did it! I finished my school, I received the papers which allowed me to work. I haven't been dancing for a month. Now I can not imagine myself dancing again. Also I entered the college this fall, and I'm looking for a job in a beauty salon. Maybe it is going to be hard to work for such a small amount of money comparing to "dancing money " but it's worth it. Dancing is a road to nowhere, it's the way where you destroy yourself . The worst thing it changes your attitude to life, to men, to people. Looking back at my first 5-6 months in America, I can say I was very very different. Now I am more "cold blooded", I am not that naive dreamy girl any more. I do not trust men, although I know that it can work against me. I meet a lot of guys but they pass by as fast as they appear. It is my fault, I meet one, I look at him and I find his minuses and he is not interesting anymore. I am lonely (even though I have a lot of attention). I hope it will change some day... But it is another story.

Regina

More books about Russian American marriage:

How To Survive In International Marriage - Oksana Leslie's book is a very thorough journey through the challenges of being a Russian wife of an American husband. The book not only looks at the many tedious steps involved in becoming an international wife, but the author takes you inside the emotional ups and downs of the process.

Welcome to America: The Complete Guide for Immigrants This volume tells your Russian wife everything she needs to know about living in the U.S.

Russian Wife: Your Greatest Blessing or Your Biggest Mistake This book is written from a Christian perspective, which makes it unique. While nonbelievers may consider that a disadvantage, I would still recommend this book if you're interested in the subject. It provides many helpful insights you won't find in the Internet.

How to Happily Survive Marriage to a Russian Woman This book is worth the read for those who are thinking about marriage to a woman from Russia, Ukraine, etc.

Wedded Strangers : The Challenges of Russian-American Marriages The Cold War may have officially ended, but, as Visson shows, the battle lives on in the culturally dysfunctional marriages made by Russians and Americans. Throughout the 20th century, and often against serious odds, Russians and Americans have been falling in love and marrying.

Russian Women & Marriage : Love Letters from Russia... Autobiography about an average American man's adventure to marry a Russian woman. The book provides a romantic understanding of why thousands of American men have gone through the painstaking process of bringing Russian women to America for marriage.